35mm prime lens!

Before, I have written wishlist about photography gear that I want most. And then I discovered about Gear Acquisition Syndrome. It’s mean that I am just worry about the gear, not the photo. So, I decided not to spend to that things.

But, I realize I have to own this gear. A prime lens. I’m in love with street photography, and it’s said that prime lens is a necessity. I choose Nikkor 35mm f/1.8G DX. I buy a secondhand.

It’s took five days for shipping.

This lens make my dslr look compact.

Okay, from now on, I have to stick with this lens. And make a lot of good photograph. Hope so.


A Letter to My Future 30 Year Old Self

Dear Future Me,

Hey dude! This is coming from your 20-year-old-self. I just wanted to write this letter to you. It’s said that writing a letter to our future self is an intimate act of self-love. And of course, I love us.

First of all, have you got married? Oh, please take care your beloved wife, she’s amazingly beauty and kind-hearted. I’m jealous.

Okay, I am feeling frustrated, uneasy and stressed now. Completely bored and unmotivated by life. I see many options and possibilities, sometimes too many. Caring about so many things that I get easily offended. Okay, you know better what I am feeling right now in my early twenties. I hope the future self-exercise by writing this letter could help me cope. I just need someone to listen, a good listener, and you’re the only one.

In your 30, have you got succesful in your carier life? What’s your job? I’m very curious what I will be in next ten years.

You know, it’s my last year in college, and I just realize that I think I pick a wrong major. I confused what I will be. I’m not hate my major, I hate myself. I think I have to write another letter for my 17 year old self. He is so stupid, immature, and don’t know himself. I will give him an advice to read a lot of book in his high school. I’ll force him to love book. Ah, It’s so frustrating. Yeah, being attracted to sad and dark things is my nature.

Oh shit, you, stop smirking like that. I know you are so damn succesful. I see you smile with gratitude for all of the lessons I am in the middle of. The gut wrenching, painful moments of extreme self-hate, followed by harsh judgments and flurries of condescending words; you are proud to have them be a part of your past. You made it through and hold nothing but positive loving thoughts for yourself.

I am going to leap into the unknown and completely follow my heart. I am going to become the person you know I can be. Future self, you are my guide and you show me what is possible for our life. You show me that no matter what life throws at us, we are stronger, smarter, healthier and more beautiful than ever, not because we rise above it, though we do, but because we have the courage to keep going.

Future self, you rock, and I am so unbelievably proud I get to become you.

Love forever,
Your younger, sad and underweight, yet doing the best he can, and hopeful self …


Have DSLR and My Photograph still suck

In 2011, my first year in college, I made a wishlist. One of them is DSLR camera. And the miracle happened, after I waited 3 years. Yes, I brought my first DSLR on May 2014. I won a blog competition and spend the prize to buy this big camera.

Before DSLR, I have a compact camera. A point and shoot. Unfortunately it’s broken, but still working.

I am little bit dissapointed because I didn’t research before bought. I got a new Nikon D3100 kit. Yeah, it’s said that this was the best entry-level DSLR. I think I could got a better DSLR by buying a secondhand one. But that’s okay, I love this Nikon D3100.

When I got DSLR, I think I can make a good photograph. Hooray, I am photographer now!

And then I realize, I have to study about photography. Exposure, shutter speed, aperture, ISO, focal length, and any other stuff. So, I joined photography forum and learned from internet, especially Youtube.

But, after I got a basic and new knowledge about photography, my photograph still suck.

I just read tutorial more. But do trial and error less.

Oh, I have to shoot more. There’s no instant way to mastering any skill.

My tips for you who just have DSLR, dont join photography forum in Internet. You will got Gear Acquisition Syndrome.


DSLR stuff that I want

Okay, I am photographer now. Amateur photographer I mean. I just have an entry level DSLR – Nikon D3100-, and I am still learning about photography. I learn about videography too.

Although my Nikon D3100 just an entry-level, I want to maximize and optimize my camera with this stuff that I want to have. Stuff that will make me look like a protog. So here are the list…

1. Camera bag

I just want local brand camera bag from Bandung. I don’t mind about Crample, Lowepro, or Domke. I want leather camera bag.

2. Shutter release

This is important stuff. For selfie!

3. Shotgun mic

I must have this one to make a short film or any video.

4. Variabel ND filter

5. Fix 50mm lens

Yeah, it will be great for Human Interest or Street photography.

6. Wireless mic
I have this stuff for make Youtube video or short film.

7. External flash

8. Camera hood

Hope I will be a great photographer and videographer. Not just from the look. 😀


Running Man Black Dog Sweater?!

My wishlist accomplished! But hey, this is not sweater, this is t-shirt. I guess this will be a cotton fleece sweater, but I dissapointed.
Oh next time I will ask a lot of question before buy something online.

Sweater Wishlist

Phew. It’s been a long time.
So, I will share what I want. 

Yeah, I am fans of Running Man now. A die hard fans maybe. This Korean variety show make me crazy. So, this sweater was weared by RM member when SNSD came as guest. Dark navy sweater with yellow dog in the center.

This sweater is about 150k-180k rupiah.

First, I like tribal motif. Second, I like hammock sweater. 

Anybody, can give me a lot of money? If only this life like a game that can be cheated. At least I can make my money unlimited to spend.

I want both of that sweater.